Monday, August 31, 2009

No fear

So I am sitting at my computer at 2:35 a.m. on the night before the first day of my senior year of college. Of course I should be asleep, but I simply can't. I am awake thinking of what tomorrow means and everything that I want to achieve this year. I truly don't know where the time has gone.I find myself constantly advising any freshmen that will listen to me to "enjoy every minute", as I perhaps haven't done. There are way too many cliches running through my head right now about how it feels like it was just yesterday, but sometimes the cliches are the only thing that fit. Right now is definitely one of those moments, as it simply does feel like just yesterday I was an awkward, nervous freshman completely unaware of what my future held. Three years later, I am still a little awkward and a lot nervous about what my future holds. But if I have learned anything in my time here it is that no matter how hard I try, I cannot predict what tomorrow will bring. My only option is to wait; something that has never been my strong suit. All I know is that I am very excited for this year and can honestly say that I believe I can make it the best year yet. It may be the first time ever that I am embracing the beauty of the unknown rather than approaching with fear. I have to say I like the feeling.